Today was the first day of school for C (5th grade) and H (9th grade). I feel like there is the "now" - first day of school, full of excitement and joy. And then it's as if someone presses "fast forward" button - all of a sudden, we will be half way through the year... and then fast-forward some more and the school year will be over, and I will no longer have an elementary school kid.
I do not want the fast-forward version of life. I want to dwell in the moment, I want to have a chance to get bored of the now, I want to hold on to my kids' childhoods. I want to pay attention to every step during the morning walk to the school bus. I want to remember what the kids are excited about when they come home from school.
I want my life to be more like a Tarkovsky film - moody, a bit dark, retrospective, and elevating the mundane objects to the level of out-of-these-world beauty by simply noticing them. I don't want my life to be like Mission Impossible movies that feel like they fly by so fast (action, action, action) you barely had a chance to understand the plot or get to know the characters.
(My kids an I just watched one of the relatively recent MI movies a couple of weekends ago - very entertaining).
(I am yet to watch Stalker with kids... Back in grad school days, my husband fell asleep 10 minutes into it...)
If your life was a movie, what would it be? Who would you want to direct it?
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