The water has been so warm and calm! I still managed to get smacked by random waves and swallow and inhale a bunch of water (ocean and I have a complicated relationship) - but it has been a joy to swim and splash and laugh with kids.
The kids and the rest of the family went to the boardwalk yesterday and I stayed back at the house. I meant to read on the porch but ended up daydreaming and ruminating about the past and worrying about the future.
I am sitting on the porch right now. The sky is clear blue and, in a little while, we will head to the beach. I feel this undercurrent of anxiety that I should probably examine and resolve... But I think I'll just ignore it for a little bit longer.
What are you anxious about?
ReplyDeleteI'll share mine:
1. my dad's health
2. my mom's health
3. our country's future
4. my journey back home
5. spending money
6. not spending money
7. the flow of time
8. my aging self
9. my France trip
10. my fat stomach.
The problem is, I am not exactly sure what I am anxious about... too many things?
Delete1. The current state of the country and the world
2. Supporting my oldest in getting ready for college stuff (like, how much should I help with getting ready for SAT? There are so many options: tutors, courses, camps! Or - nothing and just let him figure it out on his own?)
3. E will be getting his driver's license in a few months (he needs to practice parallel parking and highway driving first)
4. Health issues - there's stuff that always comes up
5. Upcoming trip to Europe :)
6. Ha, also fat stomach, as well as fat back and clothing that's not fitting too comfortably...