Crazy bad mood today.
Everything is just... not good.
And I feel especially annoyed because I feel like I have no choice about things... I didn't go to the pool, or for a walk, or read my book, or do anything remotely enjoyable - not because I didn't want to but because there were things outside my control.
I feel like I messed up at work. Nothing terrible - it was more like... failure to impress. I had a chance to do something and it just went "pfffft".
I want to throw things.
I wanted to throw a cast iron pan. But I didn't want to damage it. I like my cast iron pan. So I went outside and drop-kicked a small metal bowl a few times. That felt pretty good.
I think I might take up knife throwing. Or, better yet, ax throwing.
[Went outside and threw a few knives. That felt surprisingly satisfying.]
[I know my husband has a few axes that he uses to chop wood. Perhaps I should give it a try.]
[I threw a few potatoes, too. That was fun. Planting a couple of those in my garden.]
I want to destroy things.
When I was a kid, I sometimes would rip random pieces of paper apart.
What do you do when you feel like... well... destroying the world, shoving it into a garbage can, and kicking that garbage can as far as it will go?
What do I do? I cry. I scream in the car. I curse in the car. Usually, a combination of all three. In the car.
ReplyDeleteI love a good cry and usually feel better afterwards.
Sorry Daria from mom of children
DeleteHi Daria!
DeleteI think crying would be amazing and would really help. I just haven't been able to... not when I'm angry like that. I rarely feel such powerful overwhelming emotions, so I never figured out how to deal with them (other then just shoving them aside and avoiding them)... Isolating myself in the car to scream/curse/rant is a good strategy - will try to remember to do that next time I have a meltdown.
I am also toying with an idea of getting a cornhole game set... I think I need something physical that I can aim and throw (but not cause any damage! that metal bowl I used as anger-management-device - it now has a dent in the side! Argh!) as a stress relief ... For now, I have a tennis ball on my desk that I can bounce against the wall. Not ideal, but works for now.
I thought your potato strategy was kind of genius … or eggs but those are darn expensive.
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