While on vacation in Vermont, I found a lump on my right side. I have a mammogram and an ultrasound appointment tomorrow. I am nervous (to put it mildly...); I go back and forth from super-anxiety to completely forgetting about it and back to super-anxiety.
As usual, I keep jumping to worse-case-scenarios. I keep thinking... if I get to be alive for another 5 years, my youngest would be 12... In 10 years, our kids will be 17, 21, and 22. There are no guarantees in life - I know I need to enjoy and treasure every day I get. Still, I am terrified of dying and leaving my family vulnerable.
I've had lumps before. Cysts, mostly. Also, a fibroadenoma. But my mind goes to dark, dark places...
In other news: 2 kids are doing soccer camp and are really enjoying it. One kid has a sleepover at my parents.
Next week, we are going to the beach with my husband's family. It's going to be a lot of people sharing 1 house, 1 kitchen, etc, etc. It's stressful to think about, but I thin the kids will have a blast (there will be 8 kids in all, ranging from 3 to 12).
I signed up our gymnastics-loving child for gymnastics lessons in the fall (I told her she will need to wear a mask). The other 2 will probably do soccer.
We need to get school supplies. I hope to take kids to our local paper-goods store so that they can pick out folders, binders, pencils, and notebooks. If there is anything we can't find there - I'll order it on Amazon.
There are a ton of school-related events in late August... I am excited for our kids who will be starting 2nd, 6th, and 7th grades.
Dear reader, have you ever had an abnormal mammogram? A biopsy? How do you deal with the wait time?
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